When I Leave You
J. Marie Rundquist
Grief has a way of fooling us into thinking we’re alone.
When Ellie Trechsel dies of a brain aneurysm at age 36, she discovers the afterlife is not the calm and comforting plane she always thought it would be. Instead, it’s a painful rite of passage.
Welcoming her in the afterlife is her mother-in-law, Mari, who offers herself as a trusted guide. But Ellie isn't ready to release her hold on life—even if she’s only a spectator now. As she watches her daughter take pills to cope, her trans best friend seeking harbor in an abusive relationship, and her lifelong love sinking into a deep depression, all Ellie can see are her own mistakes.
As she swirls through the past, present, and future of the lives of her family members, Ellie needs to let go of the control she once had, but in the process, discovers how little control she ever really had in the first place.
From the multi-award winning author of As Though You Were Mine comes an emotional story of loss, grief, and compassion for fans of The Lovely Bones and What Dreams May Come.
Duration - 9h 39m.
Author - J. Marie Rundquist.
Narrator - Jama Smith.
Published Date - Friday, 09 January 2026.
Copyright - © 2026 J. Marie Rundquist ©.
Location:
United States
Description:
Grief has a way of fooling us into thinking we’re alone. When Ellie Trechsel dies of a brain aneurysm at age 36, she discovers the afterlife is not the calm and comforting plane she always thought it would be. Instead, it’s a painful rite of passage. Welcoming her in the afterlife is her mother-in-law, Mari, who offers herself as a trusted guide. But Ellie isn't ready to release her hold on life—even if she’s only a spectator now. As she watches her daughter take pills to cope, her trans best friend seeking harbor in an abusive relationship, and her lifelong love sinking into a deep depression, all Ellie can see are her own mistakes. As she swirls through the past, present, and future of the lives of her family members, Ellie needs to let go of the control she once had, but in the process, discovers how little control she ever really had in the first place. From the multi-award winning author of As Though You Were Mine comes an emotional story of loss, grief, and compassion for fans of The Lovely Bones and What Dreams May Come. Duration - 9h 39m. Author - J. Marie Rundquist. Narrator - Jama Smith. Published Date - Friday, 09 January 2026. Copyright - © 2026 J. Marie Rundquist ©.
Language:
English
Opening Credits
Duration:00:00:17
Content Warning
Duration:00:00:35
Dedication
Duration:00:00:07
Prologue
Duration:00:00:54
Chapter 01
Duration:00:08:17
Chapter 02
Duration:00:16:34
Chapter 03
Duration:00:14:44
Chapter 04
Duration:00:21:35
Chapter 05
Duration:00:26:08
Chapter 06
Duration:00:09:29
Chapter 07
Duration:00:15:16
Chapter 08
Duration:00:23:01
Chapter 09
Duration:00:11:17
Chapter 10
Duration:00:37:31
Chapter 11
Duration:00:09:55
Chapter 12
Duration:00:31:30
Chapter 13
Duration:00:24:24
Chapter 14
Duration:00:26:49
Chapter 15
Duration:00:34:24
Chapter 16
Duration:00:28:49
Chapter 17
Duration:00:30:36
Chapter 18
Duration:00:24:52
Chapter 19
Duration:00:10:47
Chapter 20
Duration:00:24:22
Chapter 21
Duration:00:25:31
Chapter 22
Duration:00:29:30
Chapter 23
Duration:00:21:48
Chapter 24
Duration:00:29:11
Chapter 25
Duration:00:15:02
Chapter 26
Duration:00:25:02
Closing Credits
Duration:00:00:44